Nikkie de Jager: “ Freedom no longer means having secrets ”

Nikkie says in the fourth episode of the documentary series that she was always afraid people would only know her because she is transgender. “And not because of what I did.” Early last year, Nikkie decided to tell her audience that she is transgender, or as she prefers to say: “I was born with a bad blanket.” People now know Nikkie’s old secret. “It’s happened now, but I know how to help people with it,” Nikkie says. “It creates a good balance.”

In the episode, we see that immediately after the video in which she revealed her secret, Nikkie says that she is feeling good. “It’s very nice. It’s very strange to say, but it’s good,” Nikkie tells her best friend Linda Hakeboom. Even Linda was unaware of Nikkie’s past. “When I heard it, I immediately thought about the pain you must have been feeling,” Linda said, while Nikkie was mostly worried that she had damaged Linda’s confidence.

Nikkie now likes that she doesn’t have to “look back” anymore. Because the reason she shared her secret with the world was because someone was blackmailing her. “I no longer have to wait for exciting emails. I have nothing left.” And that feeling makes the ultimate freedom experience for the makeup star. “Freedom wakes up and thinks: ‘I have no secrets’. I wake up in the morning with nothing to hide from anyone. And that’s freedom. “

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